Transparent Heart

No one ever told me what a challenge children can be! Oh, I am not meaning how hard they are to care for or frustrating it can be dealing with sharing, disciplining, or tantrums. I am referring to the constant mirror of my faults and weakness of my own character they reflect! Olivia shows me how far I am from where I want to be everytime she looks at me the way I look at her when she is in trouble and tells me, "Mommy, stop it!" or tells Michael "That's enough!" Of course, she needs to learn respect and authority but more than that she deserves a mother who respects her with gentleness, patience, and love. Where did she learn to be harsh or "the look"? Where does she get fits of anger or disrespectfulness? There is no one to ever blame but myself and that is a challenge! It is so hard to see my mistakes reflected in how my children act and treat each other. Now I can blame Bobby for some of it, but not too much! :)
Today I am choosing to allow my children's reflection of me to remind me to become more like Him. To comfort me in knowing that I have a wonderful God who will guide my children despite my mistakes and short comings. And I will use this to be transparent to my children in reminding them I am still trying to be better and of course sorry when I am not....better! :)

"God thank you for using everything in my life to help change me to be more like you!"